Finance My Shame

I imagine there are a few of us deadbeats around that spend our days polishing our halo's thinking we have every right to be standing on our moral highgrounds only to be haunted by a mist of hypocritical realisations the moment we close our eyes at night.
Life sure would be great for people like us if there were such a thing as sponsorship for bad consciense.
Please pay me for my daily fit of remorse, pay me for my egotistical conviction that what goes on in my mind has any bearing on the world whatsoever. Grant me a Ferrari for my eagerness to apologise to that poor girl whose life I made a living hell for three years at school. I feel so bad for being lazy I think I deserve a holiday! My dreams are haunted by the fact that I haven't remembered anybody's birthday for four years... I need a new laptop.

All there is to say really, is that if there is such a sponsorship, it's lucky there are two of us because only one is a hypocritical fool but we both feel the benefit... What?!

Does It Really Matter?

We've given this quite a lot of thought over the past few days and there are a lot of arguments for and against. We must admit that we are a bit divided on the subject and although we agree on most things there are some things we just won't be able to talk to other people about because it would give a distorted view of what kind of person we really are.
To Estupido everything matters but it's not usually something she will take too seriously, whereas Discreto does not always think it matters but is sure to get very emotional about it. We can't quite figure out which is the best way to deal with it so the conclusion consequently becomes that it shouldn't really matter. The fact that we give it some thought is enough, even if the outcome of these thought-processes inevitably result in the view that it doesn't matter.

However, is it really possible to learn from something that doesn't matter. We think it is... well, one of us thinks it is and the other think it isn't although she can't quite explain why. In this particular situation we both think there might be something to learn, but agree that if there isn't, then it doesn't really matter anyway.
We will probably keep thinking about this for the rest of the evening, just to see if we can agree on the relevance, and if the outcome is positive we might be able to bring it up with somebody else tomorrow and have a proper discussion.

It doesn't really matter either way.

The Internal Dialogue

A Blog! What on earth for?
I dunno, seems like a good idea
But, what makes you think anybody would be interested in what you have to say?
I dunno
You're not clever and you don't have any interesting/ridiculously boring, ideas for a new Sci-Fi novel
Huh?
You need to have something to say to attract people to your blog. You need to be either: likeable, funny, nasty, laughable... or at least interesting
What are you saying?
I'm saying it is bound to be a flop.
Why is that?
Right! I give up, go ahead, create a blog
Hey! That's not a bad idea, I think I will